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[Friday
May 12th, 2006
5:52pm] |
portia portia portia why do u choose to do this to me. There is so much i want to tell you but i dont know how to say it, and im scared of saying it because its not gonna make a difference to how you feel about me.
Not a day passes where i dont think of you, wether its good or bad the fact that im thinking of you makes me miss you. I THINK ABOUT U AT THE WORST POSSIBLE TIMES. For example, the other day i was hooking up with this girl and i thought to myself fuck she doesnt kiss like portia no one does FUK THIS and i pulled away. Its funny how u miss everything that i miss but i bet i miss more, i miss the days we used to spend laying on my bed doing practically nothing and i keep remembering that day i tried to make you watch the Motorcycle Diaries lol fuk that was funny u were so uninterested. FUK now im thinking of your bad side. Now i know its christmas eve and i shouldnt be upsetting u but for godsake portia any money the only reason u are listening to that shit music is because the guys u hang around now days listen to that crap. U TRY TOO HARD TO MAKE GUYS LIKE U. but ive been alive for a whole extra year then you maybe thats the difference between us two because im semi over partying and trying to impress people and all that bullshit that comes along with hagning around people like holly. Youve just got to be yourself and if people dont like it then FUK THEM. Not literally of course.
You must enjoy making me upset. I mean cant u at least call yourself senior adviser to the king of emo instead of queen of emo. For FUK SAKE that implies that we should be together (we probably should. I had big plans for us). I must sound so emo. I wish u would one day see my diary. The worst part of us breaking up was how u kept trying to convince me i didnt love you. and i so blaintantly did. Youve put me in a morally painstaking position. There a certain point were people draaw a line and u cant forgive them anymore, you cant beleive them anymore and you feel like youy dont know them anymore. right now thats how i feel about you. You ripped my heart in two but your the same person who has left me with so many good memories, your the first person ive ever truly fallen in love with. despite ppl before you whom i thought id been in love with. But i dont blame you for any of this, somewhere along the line im responsible for this HAHAH i just realised i guess its time for me to put in some lyrics lol well here goes.
I wish it was sweeter
The taste of your mouth
Because right now it hurts too much to be
Closer than this
And with one hard look I can tell that you've had enough of these useless sunsets
This could be a movie
This could be our final act
But we don't need these happy endings
So tell your father that
That you're mine and I'll swear
We'll run away and I'll make a plan and save
Everyone from themselves
And put them in the ground
Sitting in the car with the radio
Turned to static
Feeling quite tragic
And with one strategic blow
And you find yourself back in the hold
You used to sit so comfortably in
Now im tired and sad i have more to say but i want to get this to you before u go to bed. I miss you so Fucking much its insane but unfortunately for you i dont miss you as a friend i miss you as a lover. but i guess from your point of view the lyrics would be " i dont care for your sweet scent or the way you want me more than i want you". Anyways i got to go. i Love you so much. Have an awesome christmas ill be thnking of you lots xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox.
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[Friday
May 12th, 2006
5:41pm] |
Can you name 13 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 13 people...This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first...No Cheating!!!
Completely Random:
1. Marcelo
2. Alex
3. Casey.
4. Markie (popped on msn lol)
5. Juzzy
6. Lauren
7. Jenny
8. Hidden Alex
9. Matt.h
10. Matt .y
11. rhys d.
12. joanna
13. megan
What would you do if 6 and 1 dated?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA OMG THAT IS SOO FUCKING FUNNY..umm i would b angry cuz marcelo is mine!! but i guess i would expect it!!
Have you ever seen 4 cry?
Umm i dno..but i no they have..
Tell me something about number 1:
I love him!! SO SO SO SO MUCH and he is fabulous..and im never ever leaving him
How do you know 8?
thru my darling marcelo
What does 1 do for a living?
me. lol...umm goes to school
Would you ever live with 1?
fucken oath yes..for the rest of my life
i am going to kill that girl one day.
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[Friday
May 12th, 2006
5:20pm] |
the promise that he made, left broken on the floor
the bruise that found your heart left you begging for more.
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[Friday
April 21st, 2006
6:11pm] |
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i was fuckinfr dumb enpught to thinm taht id i chnaged forbesy woukd love me but hes sitting ehre nothing kore than a freidn and a casual fuck and he soesnt want nehting. and marcelso off fucking alice na di ahve noone so guess wahta comes ntex yes fun fun fun. f uk yes fucvk errer
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[Thursday
April 13th, 2006
8:24pm] |
i forgot the most exciting story!
well, jacob sent me two more messages today informing me that it was my number and why wasnt i replying and if elt really bad so i called him and i was like yh i have no credit, cant call mobs form friends phone lalalla.. n so now hes meesaging me a number on monday torecharge my phone with so il reply in future =| i neevr ever thought he was so fucking wierddddddddddd.
but i had a good laugh so all is well =D
8 days! yahayay
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[Thursday
April 13th, 2006
7:08pm] |
yahoo guess who im seeing on sunday!!
u have to call me to find out (so i can feel loved)
hehe
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[Sunday
April 9th, 2006
6:52pm] |
yum i had the best night last night... it was so unbelievably uneventful but me n lilz had sooooooooooooo much fun!!
we didnt end up going to boazs coz lily said balmain would be better, so we trekked out to balmain at like 10/11 only to find out noone was coming out afte chloes nemore n everyne was at toms. so we full try and find tom by buzzing on apartments but then we relasied we wouldnt n so we decided to go to porters in hunters hill. so we caught a cab and waited outsie coz he said to call whenw e got there.. but he wanst answering his phone and we were scared to go nito his hosue coz its huge and theres alrmas nad massive gates so then we snuck in and all the sensor lights went on and everything. finally we find porter and then lly gets us kicked out coz she pills four drinks on the floor at different times so we leave porters at like 2 in the morning and start trekking twards the city. we gave up at like balmain and i hailed a cab and he took us to star city casino for 80 c. Then we met tow guys there n got in there cab with them to go to central... hng out with them till like 5... and then we ad to go home, and tis really nice guy gave a cab driver money to take us home =) and it was all very well.. and we full got to see the sun rse and everything as we were climbing back innn. =) yum so much fun...
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[Sunday
April 2nd, 2006
7:22pm] |
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who am i kidding?
he never will
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[Sunday
April 2nd, 2006
6:59pm] |
ahhh funeral last night was so good
i am so happy for Marcelo he met MATT DAVIES and the lead singer of fightstarrrr!!!!
so jealous.
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[Wednesday
March 29th, 2006
4:38pm] |
ahh fuck i lost my wallet
thank god i registered that moshtix card aerrrgh
and i had to cancel my key card
oh the stress
oso im skipping first two periods to get get a fucking new one
but im working friday niight =D
more moolah
ah shit
i loved that wallet
it was my lover
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[Tuesday
March 28th, 2006
6:24pm] |
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yes holly. we are still going out *rolls eyes*
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[Sunday
March 26th, 2006
7:52pm] |
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nothing ever stays the same.
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[Friday
March 24th, 2006
5:23pm] |
See baby we been...
Too strong for too long ...and I can't be without you baby
And I'll be waiting up until you get home ...cuz I can't sleep without you baby
one day he will.
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[Wednesday
March 22nd, 2006
8:40am] |
haha rachel and joe are getting kicked out *thumbs up*
Joe has some theory that dad put cameras in everyones rooms and all over the house. and he used some gadget to check from the camera waves but the waves also picked up normal electrical wiring so he accused dad of having them in like every wall =| and rachel was a bitch wehn they went to coffs haha funny storys but since noone cares i wont post them =P
mmm... i just realsied i still havent done that study skills thing *thumbs down* so ill try and do them at school tomorrow.. is anyone nearly done with their srps??
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[Saturday
March 18th, 2006
5:27pm] |
mm i am a tired little one.. i worked this morning and i am babysittign tonight BUT WITH MAK =D and sleeping at her house so thats pretty damn awesome... and then i am working again tomorrow morning which mean i cant go to Julia's thing.
ergh i am so screweddd for SRP, wheres everyone esle at... mmm Monday will be fun =)
i Shall say no more on the topic.
P.s I saw marcy last night =D i am so in LOVE!
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[Friday
March 17th, 2006
1:53pm] |
yay i have a new livejournal =)
*directs everyone to get a new one too*
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